Three years after the actual orientation, whenever I read these words in the Academic Calendar of Fall Semester, I go back in time to the July of 2007, only to feel the rush of blood suddenly making my heart feel warm to me. The clouds in the sky had not poured enough till the transition of the kid, just out of the school, entered the new world and took his time to understand the rules of the system, was over. The Sun did not shine enough on the planet till the enlightenment of the new-borns was initiated.
I turn back and into myself to see how these three years have changed me and what they have taught me, something I fear to do an year later from now and regret if one year could have become better than the remaining three, no matter how good or bad these three had been. To start with, the first thing anyone notices is that Gurmeet became somewhat open, but I consider that change as a part of me, taking time to accommodate myself with new individuals; as correctly observed by my landlord who in his second meeting said I seemed a different individual altogether to him as the one he met a month back from now.
I realize that I have a drive to turn inwards and talk to myself, about myself as well as those around and far from me, as I am doing now. This at times can prove to be quite unfriendly in the sense that I start having the delusions of others joining hands against me, spying at me and planning God knows what not!!! As the famous fable goes... "A sage was asked by a nomad how people in his town were. He enquired how did he find people in the person's previous village. The guy answered they were wicked and selfish. Sage replied so were they in that town. Upon being asked the same question by another guy who found people in his previous village kind and forgiving, the sage said they were humble and honest in the town too." We always see world from our eyes! So I would rather not judge anyone about anything, no matter what... As they say, if you start judging people, you don't have time to love them :)
I also learnt that the only way to settle an issue is to talk about it, frankly! It makes me and others involved feel quite light. Holding initial grudges and having childish tantrums of not talking to the other person is quite natural at times, but the reunion of friends is the most memorable moment after all.
Take it as a confession or anything, I do lie, and ignore others when I feel something more important in my life needs attention than someone's desires and wishes. But trust me, this has always made me realize, the things are always less important than the ones, importance of both might be ephemeral though! Putting in an extra effort can make me settle both, but I never put the extra bits in me; even if I do I do so for the least significant bit, as I rather believe in enjoying in my own way (not quite known to all that I do enjoy :P) while doing the bare minimum work necessary. So I shall try to add the bits as the MSB now (and actually feel how burning the night lamp oil feels like) and see how the outcome is!
Wrong... spell it as C-O-R-R-E-C-T... is it too much for you all now? This is what I came to know about me recently, that correcting others at all instants for all mistakes can irritate the shit out of them. Hard for me to digest, as how can not one want to improve herself, I take it as an exercise to accept others as they are, WRONG, and no more correct them (in case you do want to be more correct, contact me), no more analysis and no more hidden/implied meanings!
Lastly the most difficult lesson (difficult not to accept, like previous one, rather learning this is difficult and comes only when you are ready to face the truth) that I learnt is from one of my closest friends, that friendship, like every other relation in the world, built on the foundation of love, is one sided!
I turn back and into myself to see how these three years have changed me and what they have taught me, something I fear to do an year later from now and regret if one year could have become better than the remaining three, no matter how good or bad these three had been. To start with, the first thing anyone notices is that Gurmeet became somewhat open, but I consider that change as a part of me, taking time to accommodate myself with new individuals; as correctly observed by my landlord who in his second meeting said I seemed a different individual altogether to him as the one he met a month back from now.
I realize that I have a drive to turn inwards and talk to myself, about myself as well as those around and far from me, as I am doing now. This at times can prove to be quite unfriendly in the sense that I start having the delusions of others joining hands against me, spying at me and planning God knows what not!!! As the famous fable goes... "A sage was asked by a nomad how people in his town were. He enquired how did he find people in the person's previous village. The guy answered they were wicked and selfish. Sage replied so were they in that town. Upon being asked the same question by another guy who found people in his previous village kind and forgiving, the sage said they were humble and honest in the town too." We always see world from our eyes! So I would rather not judge anyone about anything, no matter what... As they say, if you start judging people, you don't have time to love them :)
I also learnt that the only way to settle an issue is to talk about it, frankly! It makes me and others involved feel quite light. Holding initial grudges and having childish tantrums of not talking to the other person is quite natural at times, but the reunion of friends is the most memorable moment after all.
Take it as a confession or anything, I do lie, and ignore others when I feel something more important in my life needs attention than someone's desires and wishes. But trust me, this has always made me realize, the things are always less important than the ones, importance of both might be ephemeral though! Putting in an extra effort can make me settle both, but I never put the extra bits in me; even if I do I do so for the least significant bit, as I rather believe in enjoying in my own way (not quite known to all that I do enjoy :P) while doing the bare minimum work necessary. So I shall try to add the bits as the MSB now (and actually feel how burning the night lamp oil feels like) and see how the outcome is!
Wrong... spell it as C-O-R-R-E-C-T... is it too much for you all now? This is what I came to know about me recently, that correcting others at all instants for all mistakes can irritate the shit out of them. Hard for me to digest, as how can not one want to improve herself, I take it as an exercise to accept others as they are, WRONG, and no more correct them (in case you do want to be more correct, contact me), no more analysis and no more hidden/implied meanings!
Lastly the most difficult lesson (difficult not to accept, like previous one, rather learning this is difficult and comes only when you are ready to face the truth) that I learnt is from one of my closest friends, that friendship, like every other relation in the world, built on the foundation of love, is one sided!
