Beginning of the end
After i walked down from the office to my apartment all alone; not willing to look back even once, still i did twice, to see if someone's coming running behind me in a rather filmy style saying that i have forgot something in there, or may be they forgot to say something to me, but no one did; i said to myself "...and so it ends" and thereby decided to post something with that title, but then i thought that i have not reached home yet, so it is actually just a Beginning of the end.
After i walked down from the office to my apartment all alone; not willing to look back even once, still i did twice, to see if someone's coming running behind me in a rather filmy style saying that i have forgot something in there, or may be they forgot to say something to me, but no one did; i said to myself "...and so it ends" and thereby decided to post something with that title, but then i thought that i have not reached home yet, so it is actually just a Beginning of the end.
The little postcards i gave to all my colleagues, some who deserved and others who did not, and a gift i received from my most recent friend here, from whom i least expected a gift (yes, being the most recent one...he was here just a week back, still the bonding we share is just next to what i share(d) with Bettina) made my day more than complete and gave me a true feeling how a departure feels like.
The ever-so-happy-go-lucky guy Hamed, unaware of what i went through in the morning while going to the office for the last time, wanted to have a Last Game of pool before i leave, and destroy me and Alexey (another colleague, with whom i usually team up during the game, the team which today got a name too, the Golden Team Of Gurmeet and Alexey, thanks to Hamed) and "DESTROY us and BRING TEARS TO OUR EYES"... well the capitalization tries to imitate the way he says these words :D Actually this time he changed his usual dialogue to "BRING PRE-DEPARTURE TEARS to his eyes", which i got, but not during the last pool game, which we never played...
On one hand i'm sad that i could not meet Bettina on my last day to the office, and on the other, i'm glad that i didn't burst into emotions in front of her today. Her sudden "bye forever" to me a week ago when she went for her vacations, left me with no time to get emotional on her farewell, which was actually my farewell... Had it been this day, i don't know how would i react to saying a Bye to her... Luckily enough, i had made the postcards for everyone the night before Bettina's farewell and took them to office and had them clicked, in order to have their memories with me, but surely not knowing that i'd be needing one of them so soon...
Well... now all i'm waiting for is the End of this end, and i reach back home to see the happy faces whom i've kept waiting ever since i left them... but i want the time between End of this end and the Beginning of the beginning to go smoothly, may be i should watch some movie in the flight, to keep my emotions at a par, but largely i believe that i'm strong enough to walk away from people whom i've known for just two months, especially when it is about walking towards those who've known me since years...
